Rain Rain Go Away- and Please Take Algebra With You

Oh man, we went from wild fires [yep I said it- WILD FIRES IN GEORGIA] that burned over 7000 acres to 3 days of SEVERE thunderstorms! Let me tell you, I looooove the sunshine! In winter, I am miserable and grumpy because it's always cloudy and dreary. Same goes for weeks where it rains for 3+ days straight. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE a good thunderstorm every once and a while- it really makes me sleep like a baby. However, have a sick 2 year old [for the second time in a month], a husband who happens to be doing a lot of ceremonies for the HG right now - yea not really how I like my things to go.

So what does that leave me to do, ALGEBRA! Might I add that it's seriously kick my ARSE! No really, I mean it. I am that person who sees math and instantly falls into a trance- it's like Japanese for me. Give me anything dealing with Psychology and why people do what they do, give me any type of book to read- but please keep your numbers FAR FAR FAR away from me. As of now I have a B+ but we're only in the 3rd week. I really am trying so very hard to not get anything less than a B but man this class is ridiculous...

I also have to say that it doesn't help that our professor is a snob- YES ONE OF THOSE!! She has a doctorate- and I say Congrats to her on that- I have heard about how absolutely hard that can be. However, I don't really think that gives her the right to be rude. Our first day in class a classmate the mistake of calling her Mrs. Parks and this was her exact statement to the class "I will be called nothing but DR- you all clearly have not earned such a degree so you could never understand. If you fail to call me DR, I will see about having you dropped from class!"

Can we say B*TCH?! I was like seriously?! Ugh I can tell it's gonna be another loooong 6 weeks. YIKES!

What's Your Song Linkup 4

So it's that time again! AKA MY FAVORITE PART OF THE WEEK! If you haven't already linked up, head on over to Goodnight Moon and get started!!!

So my song for this week is by one of the band's I've been a fan of for forever. Since I was about 10 I have been madly obsessed with Hanson, and actually still am. My lovely husband bought me their newest CD last year for my birthday and I cried like a baby lol. This song is a bit older but my all-time favorite song. I listen to it every single day and living in Georgia, I tell myself they wrote it for me [LOVE YOU TAYLOR lol] So here it is. Hope you guys enjoy =]

I need your help!

So I am trying to win a free photoshoot on Facebook. I'm planning on using this shoot hopefully for Caylee's 3rd birthday pics! If you could please follow this link and LIKE the page Dragonfly Love Photography and then like the picture [it's the first one, Rob is in ACU's and I'm hugging him]. PLEASE ONLY LIKE because comments DO NOT COUNT! Let me know if you vote and I may just have to do a little giveaway sometime next week. Contest ends on Friday.

Here is the link:
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=199449513411642&set=a.199449503411643.42877.142139245809336&theater

Sometimes I wonder

sometimes I wonder if I've made the right choices in my life. I look at where I am now, a mother & wife going to school online, and I wonder if I made the right decisions in the past 5 years. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore my daughter and husband. They mean the world to me. Sometimes though, I feel like every plan I ever had for my life went out the window when I decided to get married and then we got pregnant so soon after.

I look at my friends back in Louisiana and it kind of makes me sad. They got the college experience. They got to have fun and have no responsibilities a hell of a lot longer than I did. I went from a group home to foster home to being a married woman. I never got to live my life or experience college life or life as a carefree adult [yes i know there is no such thing but it would have been less responsibility than I have now]. I don't want to go back in time, I'm happy with where I am in my life but I just wish I could make things a little more about me. It's always me doing and giving to Rob and Caylee and everyone else around me, but I never have time for me. To just live without having to give up everything. I feel like Rob has had it so easy. He didn't have to give up anything but playing the field and drinking constantly. I gave up everything- going to a good school, my body, my freedom, my goals. I sometimes feel like he doesn't realize all the sacrifices I have made for him, for this military life. I feel like he got to live his life and all of his dreams and all of mine went on the back burner or went out completely. He's says he sees this but I don't think he truly does and you know since I decided I wanted to do the army thing, it's been on my mind a lot. I would be in the military right now if it hadn't been for me getting pregnant. Now my days are filled with chasing a two year old, cleaning the house, paying bills, running errands, cooking dinner. I don't have anything that defines me. I don't have time for hobbies- the only time I really get alone is when Caylee is in bed and Rob is asleep, which usually isn't complete until at least 11. It's the same thing every single day and I guess I just wish there was a bit more "flare" in my life. I feel like I'm lost in a house wife life and I'm not sure that is who I want to be. I feel unappreciated and it just isn't an easy thing to deal with right now... eh i guess i'm only to blame because i made the choices i did. I'm here now and I just have to make the most of it.

Amazing Weekend

So I don't know if I told you all this but I am blessed with the most AMAZING group of friends. I've mentioned them before but I just had to post about how lucky I am. We had the best time in the world yesterday and had a blast taking some pics and I just wanted to share these with you all for a cute little laugh- let's just say we're ready for Zombie Attacks! lol [and ps don't panic- the guns ARE NOT LOADED]

WHAT's Your Song Linkup 3- KISS ME OR NOT

It's that time again head on over to Goodnight Moon to tell us what your song of the week is =]

So I listen to EVERY kind of music out there but lately this song has been stuck in my head! It's so catchy and sweet and I love the fact they are actually a married couple =] Listen and let me know if you sing it in your head all day too lol

PYHO: Is this what I think it is?

Oh boy. Where do I begin- probably Rob's job at the moment. 

So when we moved to FS last April, Rob spent maybe 2 weeks in his unit before he was selected to be on the Division Honor Guard [the flag & rifle guys at ceremonies and parades]. He was told a few months ago that he would be on the Honor Guard a minimum of two years [which meant 90% of no deployment because although the honor guard deploys, it's not often] Rob hit his one year mark home in December and while I am so thankful we left Fort Camp-hell [Campbell] and that he was not there to deploy again in January, I am still a little selfish and don't want him to leave again any time soon. This Honor Guard thing is a chance for us to get pregnant again and him not miss the firsts or the pregnancy. It's a chance for him to have more time with Caylee. It was a chance for us to put off the worrying of a deployment to Afghanistan.

Well today, things have kind of gotten shaken up. Rob was informed that he MAY POSSIBLY be pulled of the Division Honor Guard because the "Battalion's Mission Has Changed" meaning that something about his ORIGINAL Battalion is no longer the same. Maybe I'm jumping the gun but the only thing that comes to my mind is an Afghanistan deployment within the next year. Here is my reasoning:

His unit just got home in December [while he was already on the Honor Guard]

They are combining his unit and a unit from another Battalion

They were told they would have 2 years minimum before these units would be deployed again. I may be assuming, but combining the two units and making them into something else could be enough to void that 2 years and deploy them within a year. 

So here I am kind of freaking out- more because I just don't know what the hell is going on. If I need to start preparing myself for him to go to Afghanistan of if nothing will change. Iraq didn't scare me- even when he got hurt, I was able to withstand the idea of him being there. Afghanistan, however, is a completely different idea for me. Afghanistan is scary terrain with ill equipped vehicles. These people know their land- our soldiers don't. I'm sorry- i'm not trying to freak anyone out- but I'm sure you get what I mean. 

I'm hoping that they are just saying the "Mission has changed" simply because they are trying to get Rob back seeing that the only person who has the say of whether he gets let go is the Command SGT Major of the Division. This whole Mission has changed thing would be a good reason to send him back. So I'm really trying to keep the faith that's all it is. I had it so set in my mind he would be home at least another two years that I completely shut out the mental preparation for a deployment [YES I KNOW COMPLETELY STUPID WHEN DEALING WITH THE ARMY]. I know that deployment is part of this and I know we can get through it with no problem. I'm not worried about that- I just guess I'm not ready to let him go yet- but ready or not- if they send him, I don't have a choice but to stand back- keep the homefront running and stay strong for him. Sometimes I really hate the not knowing of the military. The way they drag it out can make a woman have a serious heart attack. I'll keep you all posted on what we find out!!! 

Yea. I Got Nothing

Oh darlings. Please excuse my absolute lack of blogging lately. I started my Algebra class for school this past week and it's already killing me. I hated math in high school but it's a whole different world in college- and online on top of that. I've never had to self teach myself math before- I never thought it would be this difficult to learn something on my own- but it is. Truly, I'm shaking in my boots. I have a 3.2 GPA [lower than I even wanted to begin with] and I'm just freaking out about these two algebra classes I have over the next 18 weeks! Keep me in your thoughts and pray I don't fail! EEEK

In other news, I am kinda famous. I was not on lifetime once but TWICE =] yep! I said it. We had an Army Wives Luncheon here at Fort Stupid and low and behold I was on during Army Wives & Coming Home! It was really weird to see myself and have everyone [even some of my bloggy loves] texting, calling and FB messaging me that they saw - chances are you did too. I was the only girl wearing a really pretty purple shirt with lots of ruffles. Here is a pic my fellow blog Love Just a Geek Named Jessl] took of her DVR when she saw me haha! Yep that's me cheesing it up while Brian McNamara [General Holden] was talking to me and my friends! It was a crazy fun experience and Brian is the most sweet and down to earth [and might I add HOOOOOTTT] man I've ever met aside from my husband of course lol. So yep- I'm officially a "star"! =]

So it's been kind of weird lately. I've been kind of in a weird mood. I'm not like depressed or anything- but it's like I have a lot of things on my mind. It started with stupid crap with this girl I met through Blogger who knew my best friend- well to put it lightly, not only was her husband a complete JERK [he refused to meet my husband and treated him like crap because he was jealous my other friends' husband and their friend R really liked Rob. He didn't like someone coming in and "taking his friends"] with something smart to always say- then them fighting EVERY SINGLE TIME we all hung out [them, rob and me, Tiff & her hubby, and R] They would come for like an hour or two [we have cookouts and stuff on the weekends] and would already be in an argument then would sit there and fight in front of all of use- leave a few hours later than get upset because we still had fun even after they left. We were told by this girl, "It's not our fault you let our arguing make you all feel uncomfortable!" Yea really? because who actually doesn't feel completely freaking awkward when people are sitting their arguing EVERY SINGLE TIME they are around other people! Like leave that shit at home if that's what you want to do. Every one fights with their spouse- I think it comes with marriage lol, but I know most of us definitely would not go to a friend's house and put them in that sort of situation. It's weird and creepy and yes- IM NOT INTERESTED! So anyway, our feelings toward them about arguing and just really not being "friends" to any of us anyway started a little brawl and well let's just say those two aren't welcome anywhere near the rest of us! But hey- at least I found out early on that they were demented bahaha.

Other than that, nothing has been too thrilling. Caylee spent the week with her God parents last week and was actually sick [she got sick the day my aunt got there to pick her up]. Now I kind of have the gunk that her and Aneilla [ Tiffany's daughter] had.

I'm also not to thrilled with the fact that between me being sick and the girls getting sick and now me being sick AGAIN, I haven't been able to go to the gym and therefore have gained almost half of the 13 pounds I lost in two weeks back. I'm kind of discouraged and it was kind of a kick to my motivation. I worked my butt off- saw a huge difference and then it was like BAM have you're fat back! ugh. I'm just ready to get in shape again and may is coming up real quick. I'm running out of time to look hot for the concert and wedding! I guess I need to just push myself and make sure I keep at it- no matter what.

Well anyway- Sorry this is so scattered. I promise I'll blog again soon- I'm kind of even thinking about video blogging again. We shall see. And a shout out to my newest followers. If you don't mind, let me know a little about yourself =] Glad to have you!

What's Your Song Linkup 2

It's that time again! What's Your Song WEEKLY LINKUP! Head on over to Goodnight Moon to get your link [and groove] on! Here's mine =]

So last weekend, the friends, Rob, and I all got together to have some drinks and hang out. Well the guys could not stop talking [well singing] the song making fun of Charlie Sheen and all week, Tiffani and I have randomly been saying - I'm Biwinning- Epic Winning... and today we were talking about [since it's both our ringtones lol] and this guy randomly starts singing the words to the song when he hears us talking about it- IT WAS EPIC.... WINNING! So here is the song- it's EPIC! AND COMPLETELY ADDICTING

JOURNEY TO BLONDE

So here are the pictures [in order] from being a Red- Head to a Blonde! It took a total of 10 hours, 4 bleachings, much hair dye and lots of toner [not to mention like 6 heave conditioning treatments]!!

A blonde?! more like a skittle

So thank God this is not the finished product from my rendezvous from being a red-head to blonde. Just a funny pic of me and my best friend [who happens to be a hair dresser] Just wanted to share this silly picture  of my looking like a skittle on crack!

MilitaryWives -- LEAVE EACH OTHER ALONE!

ALL I CAN SAY IS A FREAKING MEN! This guy is freaking awesome!

Day 7: Meet my best friend thanks to the Army

Day 7 - post a picture of a wonderful friend that you’ve made because of your s/o being in the military

Moving to Fort Stewart has really turned out to be amazing. 4 months ago, I met a girl who completely changed my opinion of women. She has become one of my best friends. She has been my motivation in all that I do. She is the complete opposite of me but yet we are so much alike. I have grown to love her, as well as her family, as if they were my own family. She is someone I know I can talk to about anything and never feel like I'm being judged or never have to worry that she won't be real with me. I have probably shared the most with her out of any girl I've ever known and know that all of my "secrets" are safe with her. She always has my back and is never afraid to tell me if i'm being dramatic or too harsh. She is the type of person who will drop everything on the drop of a dime to be there. She's so much like my other best friend Kristie in that aspect. She has taught me how to be the best friend I can possibly be and if it wouldn't be for the Army, she'd still be in Alaska and I'd be lonely and losing my mind without her. She gives her all and never expects anything in return. She's truly a wonderful wonderful woman ♥

Day 6

Day 6 - post a picture of the base your man is at and tell 5 cool things about that base

Inside the main gate. 

Warriors Walk.

1. We are pretty close to Savannah & Tybee Island 

2. There are over 30 ponds near base to go fishing- it's an outdoorsmens' paradise here

3. It was summer weather by the end of February.

4. If you like ass and tits you'll see plenty here since most of the women like to wear close to nothing [yea that means the big girls too lol] 

5. Most houses here look the same- they all tend to have the same type of design. it's kind of weird but neat

Day 5 & Update

Day 5 - post a pic of the branch he is in and list your favorite thing about him being in the military

So I thought this picture was neat because it's of course his MOS [although he's a combat engineer to be exact] and branch. He loves the army and I don't think he would prefer to be in anything else. I love the army, even when it drives me nuts. It takes care of our family. With all of the health problems I've had, i never had to worry about going in debt over medical bills or where in the world we were going to live- that we'd ever have to be homeless. I never have to worry about my daughter going without, and even though the pay isn't AMAZING it is enough to provide for us. 

Update: So for the past 3 days I've been spotting. I feel like this is really just not nice. I don't know anymore if I am or if I'm not pregnant. On monday, if still AF hasn't come, then I am definitely going get blood work done! I just can't live like this. Keep your fingers crossed this is all for a good reason =] 

MFF & Life of an Army Wife Day 4.

I have lost track of what number I'm on but if you haven't already linked up head on over to Wife Of A Sailor & get to participating =]

1. During military separations (whether short or long) how do you keep yourself positive and motivated? submitted by Married/Single Parent

I just remember that he's gonna make it back home. That I have to be strong for Caylee. Last deployment, I didn't really have any friends aside from my best friend Kristie [who at the time was not apart of the military family so she really didn't fully understand] who I could vent to or cry to. Kristie was the one who dropped everything on the drop of a dime the day I found out Rob was hurt. I was try not to count the days, it just makes it harder. 

2. What is your favorite concert you have ever been to? submitted by Young but Not (Completely) Dumb

Definitely Crossfade/Seether in 2005 but I'm sure that in may that will change since I am going to the Carolina Rebellion & almost all of my faves will be there [Avenged Sevenfold, Seether, Bullet for my Valentine, STONE SOUR [AHHHHHHH =]], Hinder, Godsmack, etc]! I am so stoked. I'll be there with my hubby, my best friend and her hubby for the WHOLE WEEKEND!!! 

3. What do you miss most about your “hometown”?  submitted by A Florida Girl and Her Soldier

I'm from a small town in Southern Louisiana. My highschool, the kids game from THREE different towns and it still only had 500 people. I miss Ray's Boudin, & the Fast Food snow ball stand. I miss knowing everyone and I miss the country, where our nearest neighbors were a mile down the road. I miss it being normal to go in Walmart with no shoes [yea we're a bit cajun bahaha] I miss a lot about it but I don't miss how the drugs took over nearly everyone there =[ 

4. If you could run in any race, which charity would you choose to support? submitted by Wookie & Co.

For Autism hands down... My little cousin- who is like my little brother- was diagnosed very early on with Autism. My aunt has worked so hard to get him where he is today and at almost 16 he is EXTREMELY HIGH FUNCTIONING. He has been almost like a miracle in front of my eyes and I just feel like people don't see autistic children the way they should be seen. They are so amazing and yet there is still not enough research or sources to help these children be their best. 

5. You find out Willy Wonka is your father, what 3 course meal do you INSIST he create in that stick of gum?  submitted by A{muse}ing Mommy on a Pink Park Bench

Boiled Crawfish, Crawfish Fettucine & Pralines =] lol 

And now on to the photo challenge

Day 4 - Post a picture of the family he had to leave behind to protect his country

This is actually the day he left for Iraq. Caylee was 5 months and 2 days old. Rob will tell you that it only hurt to leave us, that he doesn't really see himself as having any other family. We were the only ones who seemed to care that he was gone. He only got letters from me & his grandmother and one from his aunt and cousin- out of all of his "family" we are the only ones who sent him letters and carepackages to keep him going. It was really hard on him to have to leave us and it was even harder that his family didn't seem to care that he could have died. I guess I am a bit bitter that while other soldiers were getting packages from parents and siblings and aunts and uncles and cousins, I was having to supply EVERYTHING and try to send him MULTIPLE letters and things a month so he didn't feel unloved. I felt like while we are his main family now, it wouldn't have hurt for him to feel appreciated by others. So this is it- this is what he left behind. This is what he saw when he nearly died and this is who he will say is the only reason he lived for <3 

Life as an Army Wife- Day 3

Day 3 - Post a a random pic of how u met. Did you know then that you’d be where you are with him today?

Technically I met Rob twice. The first time we met was in 2006 at Fort Campbell, Ky- we barely spoke two words to each other. Actually, I didn't' even remember him when he called me to ask me out on a date.

The second time we met, I was in my last foster home in July 2007. I knew who he was but I really didn't remember him very well. I tried to forget everyone I knew when I first met him. On our first date he was literally MESMERIZED by everything I did. I always joke with him and tell him he was a borderline stalker. He told me he loved me at the end of our first date and I thought he was nuts. Well here we are, nearly 4 years later and I am so thankful for that awful time in my life where I met the man who would save me, change everything about my life. and I'm thankful he was a tad bit stalkerish =] 

What's your song?

Whooo my first official link-up for "What's your song?" If you haven't picked your song and got linked up yet, head on over to Goodnight Moon & get ya groove on!

So my song this week, being that I'm going crazy waiting on those pink lines on a pregnancy test is of course "Two Pink Lines" by Eric Church. Now of course this song is about them NOT wanting to have two pink lines but for me, its a song about how those two pink lines suck you in while you wait for the results lol. It's a catchy and fun toon! AND THOSE TWO PINK LINES ARE ALL I WANT LOL

Life as an Army Wife- Day 2

Day 2: A picture of you and your spouse being silly together.

This was new years eve of this year! I have so many pictures of the two of us being silly- anyone who knows us, knows that's just ALWAYS how we are. I think it's what keeps our marriage fun and exciting. What is a marriage if your spouse can't make you laugh or let loose with you? I married my best friend.