&&Every Little Thing Is Gonna Be Alright

"Don't worry 'bout a thing, Cause every little thing gonna be all right."- Bob Marley


See that quote right up there... Now that is something that every single person should live by-even at the worst and most pain in the butt moments of their lives. I think we, humanity as a whole, spend way too much of our time constantly thinking about the things that are just insignificant. Will we have enough money to the pay the bills for the month, Who has what, are we like the Jones', the war, if our marriage will last, if our kids will grow up to be healthy and happy, if we will grow up to be healthy and happy... the list goes on and on. What we fail to realize, is that all the worrying in the world gets us no where but stuck in a heart hospital in our upper thirties and gray-haired by the time we reach 35. For instance, I can definitely understand why I am constantly sick, why I always have some sort of headache or ailment... It is because I am so consumed by the idea that things will fall apart in my life, that I just haven't done enough in my 21 years to deserve something so good... Well can we say that I am just being a complete and utter idiot. 


Anyway, Of course our air condition was fixed. Mind you it took a week and 400 dollars, but none-the-less it was fixed and has been working like a charm. I am pretty sure our electric bill is going to stink big ones from when it kept freezing up... but who cares? My daughter is healthy, my husband is home and won't be deploying for a WHILE, and I have all that a woman could ever hope for. I just hope that things keep going great. I want a break from being the worry wart for a while. Lord only knows how much I could use it... seeing that I may just be the person to have a heart attack before 30 because I spend all my damn time worrying about what COULD go wrong rather than focusing on the beautiful things I have in my life. For example, I have an extremely intelligent, beautiful, amazing little girl who just gives me a million reasons a day to smile. She makes my heart absolutely melt in my chest and makes me question how I could ever love anyone like I love her. Yet I get mad and frustrated when I find out that yet again, I am not pregnant. It's no fun to not get what I want... It's scary to think that my daughter will never have a brother or sister and all because my body wants to be lame! So my goal with the TTC is to focus on my daughter now because guess what, she needs me and if I am stressed because those positive tests are coming, I lose out on this precious and amazing time with her. And that is just not something I am willing to do. So baby #2 I love you, but come when you are ready and stop making me stress =]




So, I spent so much time fretting and crying and being heartbroken only to find out that rob WONT be deploying! It's like every request I have ever given to God has come true [minus a few of course]. I guess no matter how much i think HE doesn't know what he's doing, he sure always has a way of showing me he's boss and he'll do what's right for our family. I didn't know what i would do if already, Rob would have to be deploying again. How I would sit there and explain to a 2 year old that yes daddy had to leave again, but HOPEFULLY he'd be coming back! I am thankful I get out of that a bit longer. 2 1/2 more years to be exact!!!!!


Anyway, I just felt the need to post this. I don't know why-I just couldn't sleep and it came to me. I hope you all enjoy this big jumbled mess <3 

It's Always Something

"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled.  For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers." - Unknown

Oh. Wow. What a helluva week?!? We have been down in Georgia for a little over a week now. We closed on the house a week ago today, and if it's not been one thing it's been another.WHOO I sure am tired of obstacles and things getting in my way. This is one of those times where I want a big fat monster truck to run these jerk obstacles over. Wouldn't that make life so much for fun? To give the obstacles in our way a big "SCREW YOU" and just ram them with a huge monster truck.... ha ha ha. If only it were that simple?!?

Here it goes:

-Housing at Hell [Fort Campbell] ended up charging more money than they were supposed. Because the idiots refused to let Rob put in his 30 day notice without his orders, and his orders only came 2 weeks before we moved, we got stuck paying over half of May's rent even though he was completely cleared out of their April 26th [which would have been sooner had they not been jerks and did our inspection sooner]. On the plus side, we didn't get charged more than the cleaning fee we paid because the house was in "EXCELLENT CONDITION" which was quite surprising after the horror stories I have heard. Guess we got screwed in a different department.

-When we walked through the house we bought, everything was great. There was no problems, the inspection showed no major problems. We thought we were set. HA HA HA! Not even 2 days in the house and the Air Condition breaks, the dishwasher won't drain, we have a fire ants infestation in the backyard, and we discover some of the floors are soaked from some mysterious soapy liquid [carpet cleaner??] the owners dropped on the floor. We now have all of the above fixed except the stupid air condition [which just so happens to be the MOST IMPORTANT problem in the house]. I have been trying to get someone out here for 4 days. One guy came out and didn't even look at the darn thing and tried to say we owed him money for fixing it, then he had the nerves to curse me out on the phone- even though for once I bit my tongue and completely remembered my manners. Never going through that company again. Now I am waiting on someone to "call back" on a time they can make it out here. It is supposed to get in the 90s tomorrow and I really could not stay in this house if that were the case. This is my home, I don't want to leave it because people are too stupid to get their job done. I MEAN GEEZ YOU'RE GETTING PAID LIKE 40 BUCKS AN HOUR, FIX MY AIR CONDITION!!! I am hoping someone comes out today... My patience is definitely being tested. I swear, It's always something. I guess I shouldn't complain, it could ALWAYS be worse. I will take the one thing at a time rather than it all falling apart on me [knock on wood]. 

-So I have learned real quick who is to be stayed away from here. I am gonna remember that--- enough said.

-My so-called "Best Friend" went psycho- I guess the thought of her going to Germany and being pregnant got to her. Well she can take that crap and shove it- I am not dealing with it-thanks. There are some boundaries you don't cross and she definitely crossed them- for the third time now... yet again... idiot me gives too many chances to people who don't deserve them. One day I will learn I suppose.

-As for Rob, Caylee , and me. Well we are doing a little better now. We all got REALLY sick when we first moved here, I am assuming it's the climate [oh and did i mention TIME] change. It was pretty gnarly.Caylee threw up for the first time since she was born. It was pretty disgusting, especially since it happened to be right as I was taking a bite of my delicious double cheese burger with no ketchup, extra pickles. Thankfully, we are all doing a little better minus Rob being pretty badly sunburnt from the beach [IDIOT-I told him to put on sun block but he didn't listen]. We have lots of stuff to unpack, but it's kind of pointless when I can't breathe because it's so hot in the house loll. 

-So with all those complaints, here comes the good. I LOVE IT DOWN HERE- minus a few absolutely rude and obnoxious encounters I have had with people here [e.g AC guy] My house is pretty perfect [minus a few imperfections-see above ha ha], I have met some pretty great ladies so far, I got an almost maxed out score on the final I was sure I was going to flunk. It's good =]